I really am struggling today . The news of the dr appt was not good . My knee is not healing as it should be . Knee replacement is the suggested next step . I’m doing what I can each day to accept where I am in life , what I have control over and how what I need to do to find contentment in my life . Part of me feels like - if I could just hug you , hold you , kiss you I’d feel sooo much better . But that is not possible and may never be . So then what do I do ? I just keeping repeating all the affirmations that I have , I sew and I keep doing something everyday oh and take stool softener ! A good poop really can make ones day . Gross I know but it did make me laugh .
It’s Monday I can catch up on vlogmas , I can sew on rag quilt and I can get bedroom in order. Not being able to gate anyone room in my house ,in order , is really depressing. As from hobbling around when I do realize what I want to do .
Journaling is supposed to help put these thoughts to bed or in order . Not sure why I’m fighting it . I really do want to do what’s best for me that I can do .
So do I make list everyday of what I have to accomplish before my head hits the pillow for the days end ?
Maybe I’ll make a short list , then add more ?