Wednesday, October 21, 2020

Tuesday

 Well I know have a physical therapist coming to the house , it’s time to put weight in my hands and on my left leg . Boy am I sore this morning, four pounds can really work my muscles . I am trying to do the walker , touch little with left foot , using arms and step , then hop with right foot . Like a weird dance . 

Getting out of shape is soooo easy . My left foot feels weird when I stand , I can get swelling down - if I sleep with leg on three pillows. What a drag that is . Cats never leave my side , esp at some odd hour in the too early am ; when I need to pee . Imagine , leg on high three pillows and cat the size of medium dog not wanting to move and bladder like a water balloon . Never imagined this would be my life . 

There is a podcaster , for knitting , whom has a brain tumor way close to spine , non operable . As I watched the special episode of Fruity Knitting ; I cried . My bone will heal , his head may not . This makes me even more aware of how I spend my day . 

And so I go , washing fleece , dishes and then knitting , relearning to walk , excepting where I am and being grateful I can do all this . 



Tuesday, October 6, 2020

In your head

How much stuff does one person really need? Nothing like being forced to be home to make me accountable. No one is here telling me I wasted money or how can I get rid of that - no one but me . So why the struggle ? If it clears out space , to just breathe or space to have space . Why does it have to be filled? What am I trying to fill ? As I get my sisters stuff out I see something being done . 

I guess that’s it for today . Clear out somebody else’s stuff . 

Music don’t ever discount  , the free change of mood, that’s not fattening ; that it provides. 

Struggling

  I really am struggling today . The news of the dr appt was not good . My knee is not healing as it should be . Knee replacement is the sug...